Burdens

So this blog is supposedly all about making changes and the first one I think I'm going to make is to transform myself in to a more positive person. Now I realize that is kind of a big bite to chew. I mean there are so many parts of life where you can be "more" positive.  I've never thought of myself as a complete Negative Nancy but sometimes I reflect on the way that I handle situations and I don't like the way I've reacted. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to be a gaggy "I love everything and it's all sunshines and rainbows" but a little positivity never hurt anybody. Starting today I'm going to try to surround myself with positive thoughts and act like I want the people around me to act.

I often find myself avoiding eye contact with people that I know simply because I don't want to "embarrass" myself if they don't want to talk to me. A lot of times I also feel like I don't have the time to stop and talk. But what the heck?? How long would a simple "Hi, how are you?" take in my day? And really the outcome couldn't be too brutal. In fact I think taking a few seconds out of my day might even help me build strong relationships with the people around me. Even on my most stressed out days, I am going to make a concerted effort to take a little time and talk. Whether it's with my best friend or the clerk at the grocery store, I am going to try to be the type of person that others look forward to seeing on the sidewalk, so they don't avoid eye contact.

So this is how it starts...

I've never really been much of a writer. Sure I write when I have to, and some people (the ones that have to love me) have even told me that I'm good at it. So starting today (or this morning, earrrrlllyyy morning) I've decided to start making changes. I guess that's kind of why I set up this blog. I want to start writing so that I can see where I've come from and start to figure out where I'm going. I'm hoping I can use it as a way to "keep track" of where my life takes me and the journeys that I have along the way. As I write this, I'm looking forward to a new year filled with good times and blessings. I'm also looking at it as a blank canvas, where I can take control of my life, conquer my fears, and step up to the challenges that come my way. I'm just a college kid, trying to figure life out, and I think some change is exactly what I need.

Is the picture cheesy? I think I might have seen it on a poster in 5th grade, but I think it encompasses how I feel. The change I want is there, I just have to make it happen.